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Cheryl Cole - Parachute

I hate the energy I've regained in me after a sleep. I hate it because I hate waking up to the sobriety that you are gone. It haunts me even when I try to get back to sleep again, and then keep waking up..to check my handphone what's the time and whether you're still asleep, checking whether you've texted me.

I cried the whole of yesterday. I cried because I made you depressed. I cried because I realised how much I mattered to you, that I could bring extreme happiness and sadness to you. I cried because I only realised how much I mattered to you only after we broke up.  I cried because I regretted harbouring negative thoughts and attitude towards our relationship. I cried because I'm afraid that I cannot walk with you anymore, afraid that you'll have to walk this lonely path alone. I..really want you back.

Then again, I am thankful that you're still willing to talk to me. I'm holding on to hope. Hoping one day, perhaps..we can be together again someday, or soon. I want to walk the path with you, so please allow me to. Please take good care of yourself. I'll be waiting..


(and loving you).